A situation happened at work. At risk of making sure I keep my job, I will have to keep this as vague as possible. Hopefully it makes sense.
Bottom line, if you say something, you have to be able to take responsibility for your words. Be it that I said something that "hypothetically" hurt someone, I have to accept take responsibility for that. I make comments about life or whatever, but when dealing with individuals that... (well I can't say) just dealing with certain individuals, you have to be... cautious.
I'm a reflective person. In the heat of an arguement, I can argue my side, but once I've had a chance to cool down, I can see the other persons perspective EVEN if the other party was wrong or completely off base.
On the flipside, I'm TOTALLY NOT A COLD SHIT STARTING PERSON AT ALL! I hate confrontation, I hate drama and I hate HATE feeling like I hurt someone. It's not in my character and it bothers me to think that, that's how I'm viewed based off ONE issue. However, it goes with taking responsibility for your actions- I have to reestablish faith and trust in other people.
My friends and lots of people I discussed this situation think that I'm too hard on myself. I don't. I think its all about growing and being able to recognize faults within yourself to just be the better bigger person in life.
I received a lot of grief from this one situation. Certain people hate me, barely speak to me anymore and for a while after it all happened, I was PISSED! I was mad that the relationships I built with other people was all ruined because I'm not a coward and I admit to my wrongs.
But in the end, there's the age old saying "don't start nothin, won't be nothin".
There's a very short list unforgivable things people could do to make me walk around with hate in my heart for someone. When do that, you give the other person power over your emotions and that's no bueno! So despite everything, I got love for everyone. It's better than hate =)
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